I miss him more than a fat kid at fat camp misses cake.

Only 18 days left.

Exams coming up! First one next Wednesday the 15th. One on the 20th. Two on the 22nd. One online.

Abschied/Geburtstagsfeier (Goodbye/Birthday Party) will be on the 25th.

Home on the 27th.

till I return home to Canada: 31 days left.

So excited, yet so afraid. So sad to leave Germany after spending about 10 months in this country. I don't know how I will react on the day of my flight. Feeling a bit reflective already...

Disappointing news: I got rejected by Dental school. Strangely enough, I was wait-listed last year. This year, completely rejected.

And to think, I would have already finished Year 1 of Dental school if I decided to give up my exchange year.

However, I don't think I will ever regret the decision to do so. Mainly because of the amazing friends I have made, the places I have seen, the life experience I have accumulated. I feel I have changed as a person. More independent, responsible, reliable, mature, diplomatic, personable, and most of all, more awesome. Not to mention meeting the love of my life. The most wonderful result of this exchange year.

Well, also because I received a DAAD scholarship equivalent of more than $10000 CAD for the exchange too. It was also a big reason. Something to be proud of, really. Since the application process was tedious and very competitive.

Actually, this rejection was the most disappointing thing that has ever happened to me. It's like having your hopes and dreams shot down, and self-destructed in your face. I cried. It was the most devastating night of my life. It felt like my train derailed and there's no one to rescue it or put it back on tracks.

Now that I think of it, it was the first real failure I have ever experienced. I am TWENTY years old and this is my FIRST failure. I am so used to getting everything I want, being qualified (or overqualified), and being the perfect candidate for anything I apply for. My mom said, even though I have a great track record, a failure will happen eventually. My greatest fear is failure, and it has finally happened to me.

It's been about 6 days now... I'm feeling better and seeing the silver lining. Looking at the bright side of being a non-Dental student, even though I have full intentions to re-do my DAT and apply for dental school all over again.

I just finished doing my course selections. Under Pathology: Understanding Disease; Diseases of Organ Systems. Under Pharmacology: Principles of Drug Action; Introduction to Toxicology. Under Physiology: Human Physiology. Under Anatomy: Systemic Human Anatomy. Under German: Advanced Translation German to English. AND, my most anticipated course, RUSSIAN FOR BEGINNERS.

A lot of awesome courses, but a really awful schedule. 8:30, 9:30, 10:30AM classes. Don't finish till 3:30PM on Fridays. I guess it's better to have cool courses, bad schedule, than awful courses, good schedule. Trade-off.

Regarding Art, I haven't done any for a while. But I have a few pieces in mind when I return.

By the way, I finished reading my first German book completely. It's a huge accomplishment and a milestone worth celebrating.

That's all I've got to say.

Only two months left until I fly home to Canada.

I've been inspired to learn Russian. Hopefully, I'll have the basics down before I leave.

So far this semester, I've discovered a strong interest for English Linguistics.

And, last but not least, I'm terribly in love.

That is all.

Sorry I have no updates for you. Been busy. Or maybe just unmotivated.

Europe's been great. I've traveled so much and taken so many pictures that I've lost count. Though strangely enough, I haven't really felt inspired to draw or do anything artistic. Bummer, eh?

I apologize again.